Nihilism or Optimism? More Thoughts on Grief

(My apologies in advance for writing about grief again. I wish my mind was elsewhere, but I suppose that’s what happens when someone close to you dies.)

I have yet to figure out what grief is. I can only tell you that my emotions are everywhere right now like a rubber ball bouncing in a small room. One minute I forgot and life goes on. Other minutes I feel nihilistic. I cannot see the…